When I Dream About You

Ku menuliskan kegelisahan lewat kata
Menorehkan rasa melalui rangkaiannya
Tentang asa, serinai kerinduan
Ia yang kunanti dalam pelukan
Ia yang sedarah dengan sang bujang

Sungguh tak pantas lontaran keluhan

Pertanda hilang malu atas rahmatan

Seakan tak puas besaran limpahan

Pada penghidupan, pada keniscayaan

Ku mencari pertanda dalam sekian titian jalan

Makna dalam segenap garisannya

Lalu terhentak, 

Bukan hakku bertanya

Tugasku hanya meminta

Karena jika Ia berkehendak

Ada dan tiada

Semua keputusanNya . . .

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Back (just right) in time !

Time to write again :)

Here I am now, three years later from my last post. My baby boy just turned two yo yesterday. A lot of things need to catch up. Then again, I'm here, Ling is back. Shall write all the dreams, all my wishes, all of me...

12:51 AM

Jan 26th, 2016

A Blessing in Disguise

Less than a week ago I made a confession, that I'm not ready yet....
But obviously Allah SWT doesn't stay on the same page with  me...
Allah SWT always knows what the best for me.
Allah SWT gives me a little surprise by this morning . . .

The first test pack

 I ran to my hubby as soon as I saw this two stripes, well his eye lids were literally still closed.
The two stripes were blurred, so I had another shot with a new pregnancy test pack. It's still the same !
Wow...We both started to think that this thing is for real :D.

Sooooo . . . to make sure that this was not fakin'-sort-of-kind syndrome, I went to hospital on my way to work to have a lab check.

And... whoalaaaaa......

My laboratory result ^_^v

It's official !!! Sort of heheheh... since I need to see my doctor first to really-as if in really-make sure that me and my hubby are going to be a parent !

Though I'm not really that conscious , it turns out that I AM HAPPY ^____^
I'm gonna be a mummy, yeaayyyy :D 

No yet, just a little more time . . .

Having through this jealousy is really eating me up to deep inside. At the surface, I may wanna have the same experience like hundreds, thousands, millions other women ever had. But far away in my hidden heart, I know I'm not ready, just not yet.

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All those faces that I have been wearing are only to fulfill other people's wishes.
They are done based on the reasons of age, health, time . . .  and time . . . and consequences . . .  
A lot of people's advice were taken, many to-do lists were noted.
To have the wish of becoming true.
But I realize, this dream is not mine.
As I am not ready . . .
Not yet . . .

Jennifer Hudson - If This Isn't Love with Lyrics

If this is not love, tell me what it is ?
I could be dreaming or just plain crazy !
I must be very selfish because I don't wanna share him with nobody.
If this is not love, then please, tell me what is it ?

Can't Help Falling in Love (Elvis) - ThePianoGuys

Wise men say only fools rush in.
But I can't help falling in love with you.
Shall I stay ?
Would it be a sin ?
If I can't help falling in love with you . . .

A Good Rain Knows . . .

"Rain on a Spring Night"

 By Dù-Fǔ


Congratulations, rain
you know when to fall

And you know quite well
you belong to spring

Coming at night, quiet
walking in the wind

Making sure things
get good and wet

The clouds hang dark
over country roads

There's one light from a boat
coming downriver

In the red morning
everything's wet

Flowers all through Chengdu
heavy and full of rain.


(Translated by David Young)




I'm feeling like lost in time.
There is a silence flowing around me, circling everywhere.
Yet, something reminds me to keep on believing
That everything has its own time, especially for love.
Like a good rain, it knows when the perfect time to come . .