A Blessing in Disguise

Less than a week ago I made a confession, that I'm not ready yet....
But obviously Allah SWT doesn't stay on the same page with  me...
Allah SWT always knows what the best for me.
Allah SWT gives me a little surprise by this morning . . .

The first test pack

 I ran to my hubby as soon as I saw this two stripes, well his eye lids were literally still closed.
The two stripes were blurred, so I had another shot with a new pregnancy test pack. It's still the same !
Wow...We both started to think that this thing is for real :D.

Sooooo . . . to make sure that this was not fakin'-sort-of-kind syndrome, I went to hospital on my way to work to have a lab check.

And... whoalaaaaa......

My laboratory result ^_^v

It's official !!! Sort of heheheh... since I need to see my doctor first to really-as if in really-make sure that me and my hubby are going to be a parent !

Though I'm not really that conscious , it turns out that I AM HAPPY ^____^
I'm gonna be a mummy, yeaayyyy :D 

No yet, just a little more time . . .

Having through this jealousy is really eating me up to deep inside. At the surface, I may wanna have the same experience like hundreds, thousands, millions other women ever had. But far away in my hidden heart, I know I'm not ready, just not yet.

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All those faces that I have been wearing are only to fulfill other people's wishes.
They are done based on the reasons of age, health, time . . .  and time . . . and consequences . . .  
A lot of people's advice were taken, many to-do lists were noted.
To have the wish of becoming true.
But I realize, this dream is not mine.
As I am not ready . . .
Not yet . . .