No yet, just a little more time . . .

Having through this jealousy is really eating me up to deep inside. At the surface, I may wanna have the same experience like hundreds, thousands, millions other women ever had. But far away in my hidden heart, I know I'm not ready, just not yet.

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All those faces that I have been wearing are only to fulfill other people's wishes.
They are done based on the reasons of age, health, time . . .  and time . . . and consequences . . .  
A lot of people's advice were taken, many to-do lists were noted.
To have the wish of becoming true.
But I realize, this dream is not mine.
As I am not ready . . .
Not yet . . .